The Wilderness of No

Wilderness of No – Behind the Song

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There are places in the journey of faith that we want to hide.

They’re not the highlight reels or the breakthrough testimonies. They’re the long, quiet stretches where all you hear is “no.” No open doors. No clear answers. No dramatic rescue. No movement. Just a wilderness of closed options, aching prayers, and the slow grind of obedience.

That’s where Wilderness of No was born.

It came from a season where Bo and I faced silence, redirection, and rejection—not just from people, but what felt like God Himself. Every opportunity I pursued failed. Every plan hit a wall. I wasn’t running from God; I was seeking Him. But it felt like I kept getting shut out.

The song begins as a lament but by the end it becomes a declaration.

In Scripture, the wilderness isn’t a place of failure—it’s a place to formed to become more like Christ. It’s where Moses learned to lead. Where David was humbled and learned to lean on God. Where Jesus was tested and proven. And where Israel discovered that even in barrenness, God provided bread from heaven and water from the rock.

“Wilderness of No” is about my personal journey, but it is also a song for anyone in that space—where God feels quiet, where prayers feel unanswered, where you’re doing everything right and still feel stuck. It’s for those who are tempted to give up, not because they don’t believe, but because they’re tired of waiting.

The heart of the song is this:

Even when the answer is “no,”
God is still present.
Even when the door closes,
His promises still hold.
Even in the wilderness,
He is still faithful.

It’s okay to grieve the no’s. It’s okay to feel the sting of delay. But don’t confuse God’s silence with His absence. Sometimes His “no” is a redirection, not a rejection. The wilderness is not a place punishment—it may be discipline but it is preparation.

This song is a render to me in that dry place—a way of saying: I don’t see it yet, but I still trust You. I’m not where I hoped I’d be, but I still belong to You. Even here, especially here, I will worship.