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There's a version of Christian ambition that can become so intertwined with faith it becomes indistinguishable.

It prays hard, goes anywhere, and believes for the impossible. It can cross an ocean. What it cannot do—at least not on its own—is die.

Going Not Knowing is the story of one man's slow education in the difference between the greatness he desired and the greatness God had in mind. From the spiritual rainforests of East Africa to the neon skylines of East Asia, Peter Palma chronicles twenty-five years of God answering the wrong prayer with the right answer.

Moving through miracles, megachurch dreams, and pastoral failure, Peter traces the humbling arc of learning that obscurity is not the opposite of significance—it may actually be the door to it.

Going Not Knowing is a memoir about ambition, humiliation, and the strange mercy of not getting what you asked for.